Yesterday was quite busy day for me. It was a good distraction as it allowed me not to feel sad about what happened a few days ago.

I went to my girlfriend's house at Quezon City where I had lunch with her family. I had lechon kawali, sinigang, and multiple servings of rice. I can't remember eating that much in a long while. The rest of the day was then spent hanging out with my girlfriend and her mom, going around the city in search of stainless kitchen counters. We didn't find what we were looking for, but I had fun going to shops in Quezon City, Mandaluyong, and Quiapo looking for stuff.

My girlfriend and I went then to Greenbelt to meet up with my balikbayan cousins for dinner. We ate at a Japanese restaurant called Nanbantei and I was happy that my cousins enjoyed the food. It was fun getting to hang out and talk to my cousins again after a couple weeks of not seeing them. After dinner and seeing my cousins off to a cab, we watched Cirque Du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant. It was a slight bummer for me though because I was hoping to see Solomon Kane instead, but it wasn't being screened at Greenbelt. The movie turned out to be mildly entertaining but it bored me towards the climax. I guess we won't be seeing any sequels for that film anytime soon.

I then brought my girlfriend home to her place and called it a day at 3AM today. All in all, it was a very good day. I didn't have much time to feel sorry for myself, which was good. A couple more days of this and the spring in my step will be back in no time.

"Today is the first day of the rest of your life"

I love that quote from the movie American Beauty. It somehow gives a person the hope that no matter how shitty your life turns out to be, the following day will always hold the promise of a better outcome. Inspiring eh?

So I'm going to visit my girlfriend today. Its a much needed and welcome distraction from the past couple of days. We're probably just going to hang out and plan the day as we go along, which should be good for me right now cause it was planning ahead that got me into this predicament in the first place. I'm up for a little spontaneity right now.

I cooked dinner last night too. It definitely got my mood better cause cooking is one activity where you have control over things. Portion size, taste, ingredients, temperature - everything depends on your discretion. I made Pasta Arrabiatta and Pan Fried Dory Fillets. It turned out to be a good, hearty, and flavorful meal for the family, and I'm planning to prepare dinner more often. My culinary degree might as well be good for something and benefit my family right?

This is probably going to be my only post for today. But its better than nothing at all right? I'm optimistic about today, I feel its going to be one for the books. :)

I'm feeling a tad bit more optimistic now. I got an hour's sleep in, which got my mood better once I woke up. I'm also getting exercise, which experts say is a good remedy for the blues. And I'm onto my second blog post for the day. Gotta keep moving! Gotta keep moving!

What's better is that I'm not thinking too much about my predicament. I'm actually thinking that my current state might actually do wonders for me. I'll be able to do the things I actually want to do, instead of going back to corporate work, of which I'm certainly going to regret a few months down the road. Maybe a more simple way of living is in order for me this time. Money really isn't everything. Sure it makes life more comfortable, but who said that life was always supposed to be comfortable? A change is in order, and maybe this is God's way of telling me that I should start doing something with my life now. I took the plunge once before, now why the hell am I trying to get back to the place I left? Its probably time to take a new path, finally take the road less travelled in that fork in the road. I'm feeling optimistic now. Its time to shake off the blues...

I was the recipient of disappointing news yesterday. I found out that I didn't get the job I was praying and hoping for since I got back from the States. I'm depressed and hurt about it because I thought I already had it in the bag, that it was a sure thing. Only the tables turned on me. Right now, I don't feel like doing much. I know I'll get over it soon, but the wound is still pretty raw. I'll bounce back from it, thats for sure. I'm going to get back into my groove before you know it, and I'll be up and about in no time. I've been repeating the overused cliches "Maybe it wasn't for me" and "I'll find something better" and "Its just not in the cards right now" and "things could be worse" in my head. But despite trying to make myself feel good about what happened, the news was still a bit painful to take in. Thank God that I have the most wonderful girlfriend who is standing by my side and remains very supportive despite of me. I love you so much!

Enough of the drama though. Hey, the blog is up again. Now that I'm officially considering myself to be part of the jobless statistic, I might as well make the most of out this state by being productive. And what better way to become productive than to update this blog, which no one will read. Don't get me wrong, blogging isn't the only activity I'll do in order to consider myself productive. I'm still going to try to look for a job, try my hand at setting up my own operation, try to write the next great Filipino novel (after Noli Me Tangere...good luck), anything to keep me busy and keep my mind off the dark thoughts. In the end, what I hope to be able to say for myself is that "Hey, maybe being jobless isn't such a bad thing." and "I made the most out of being without a job." Good luck to me and good luck to anyone who accidentally stumbles upon this blog. Cause the sarcasm is back with a vengeance and I don't think its going to be taking a break anytime soon.