Post-Holiday Funk

I think I've developed a kind of  post-holiday depression. Probably from enjoying the holiday season too much. Now that it has come and gone,  I feel that my vigor and energy has left with it. The rejuvenated feeling I was hoping for with the new year has not materialized as of yet.

For the past days since the calendar changed years, I've been feeling lethargic. I don't want to move, and when I do use my motor skills, I get tired easily. I also thought that I would be excited to go back to work once the year starts. Boy, was I wrong. I hate work right now. I hate how the office looks and I hate to admit it, but I wasn't looking forward to seeing any of my officemates. I'm not in the right frame of mind to work, i've even entertained thoughts of ditching work completely.  I want to be alone, isolated from everyone.

Yesterday, I was sick. My stomach was bothering me and I was running a fever. Today is a little bit better, but i'm still far from being at my optimum level. I snapped at people for no apparent reason, other than just not wanting to converse with anyone. Right now, I am not focused. I'm thinking of many things, not having anything specific to do. I'm on survival mode, doing routinary activities to help me find my groove.  Just hoping for the funk to leave my body and everything to get back to the normal scheme of things.

I want to sleep in, but my body doesn't want to cooperate. I don't want to eat, but my stomach protests. At least my body doesn't want me to give in to depression quite easily. The mind however, is another creature altogether. My mind is in conflict with itself. I want to be angry, but I am yearning for comfort. I want to be alone, but I am looking for contact.

I feel like an idiot by posting this rant here, but i've learned that writing down things, specifically my pains, helps me get over them easily. Should you read this, and feel compelled to write something in return, please do so. I think its going to help a great deal. Also, if you think my condition is actually worse than what I've been writing gibberish about, do tell me, so that I may talk to someone and get a prescription for it.